Faith celebrated her Kindergarten graduation last night and turned 6 today! Where does the time go? I find myself having to push down more guilt the older she gets. I feel bad that while I was able to stay home with her by doing daycare, I wasn't able to give her a lot of one-on-one time (and was often too tired or busy in the evenings once the other kids left). I feel bad that I let myself get overworked and tired and lose my patience all too often. As she gets older and we all get more busy, I'm not consistent with daily book reading. We have yet to do a family vacation. I could go on and on, twisting myself into knots about all I have failed to do. As mothers we're good at that, aren't we?
Bottom line is that I can't change the past, I can only impact the future. Therefore I need to focus on everything I did
RIGHT. I kept her home with me for almost her entire childhood and avoided having to send her to daycare (not that there's anything wrong with daycare...not trying to start a controversy here!). I am sure to set aside days and times just for the two of us, whether it be a "girl's day shopping", a trip to the children's museum, or a picnic at the park. I limit TV and electronic time, and I have a daughter who loves to play outside. Because I focus on nutrition and healthy foods, Faith enjoys treats but also knows that too much sugar is not good and she eats a variety of nutritious foods.
Saying those things out loud to myself doesn't erase any regret, and I think no matter who we are and what kind of mother we are, we all have regrets about where we failed our child(ren). But as moms we have to give ourselves some credit, pat ourselves on the back for doing the best we can at the toughest job in the world, and not dwell on what we should have done differently.
Instead, I'm thinking of following my friend Crystal's lead and creating a summer "bucket list". This can be done for any season or special time of the year. Think of the things you'd like to do with your kids, the experiences you would like them to have, and make a list. As you go through the days and weeks, make sure to plan those activities into the calendar, and I think that even if you accomplish a fraction of them, the end result will be so rewarding.
To get us started, I pinned several examples from Pinterest for inspiration. You can find them all on my "Summer Fun" board here:
I'm going to sift through the ideas and make a list of my own, and then I'll share it in the next couple weeks!